I find myself in that place of wonder, a familiar place that is no longer uncomfortable but welcomed as part of a process bigger than myself. I now have a deeper understanding of people, of heartache, of stress, of wishing things were somehow different. I understand the way thoughts create emotion and hope creates opportunity. I understand what it means to fight for something you believe in, looking within when you just wish everyone else would change, and what it means to extend a hand and to receive one.
I am leaping on faith. I have had a dream that has bubbled within me for as long as I can remember. Over time it has changed, grown, narrowed in focus, transformed, and ultimately transcended anything I could identify with, and become something that is something I can only be fortunate to be a tiny part of. I wish here I could give a flowery description of what it looks like, a colorful visual to see and admire, but it's not there yet. It is simply an undenyable feeling that greatness lies ahead and I am walking boldly.
I know that my next path will lead me closer to my life's work. I whole heartedly believe I am here to impact lives. I feel it is not about us, but about giving our life in a way that can honor others, serve where there is need, and lift people to reflect the light within that they may not see on their own.
This year I decided to leave teaching. Since then, I have had more reassurance, and more certainty than ever before. I am nervous, however I know that when I walk in the direction of all I am designed to be, willing to give all that I have received, I will be OK. I too know that the lessons, both difficult and rewarding are all aligned with the fulfillment of my highest calling.
There was a time that I wanted life to be easy, for decisions to be made for me, to know the plan before it was formed. Now, I just want to walk boldly into the unknown. I have been shown my own strength, given the lessons I have needed to learn, and the ability to see more clearly than before. I'm not "there" there is so much more to learn and take in, but I am thankful rather than resisting. I am learning to surrender.
The lessons are not easy, but are so worth it when they lead to a calling higher than myself. It is all here. It dances around me. I am learning, and taking it in, reflecting, and have my eyes and heart open to the process. I am thankful for the people in my life that help me along the way as support, reflection, and opportunities to grow.
I don't know what is next for me. I don't know what it looks like. But, I am ready.
